Dear _____…


Don’t read this, this is not for you, it’s just for me cause I need this out of my system so I can move on, is meant to be for one person only, someone I cared about, someone that probably won’t read this. And if this is you, please don’t say anything.

As I’m about to start a new “chapter” in my life, I’ve decided that I’m going to let you go, finally, for once and for all. I’ll list a 100 thing I’m glad about and with this post I’ll be promising myself I will never be sad again, not for you, not for us. Cause we were it all, but we never were.

This is for you

Dear ____ thank you…

  1. For being yourself with me
  2. For making me a happy girl
  3. For giving me that first kiss in the couch
  4. For holding my hand in the cinema
  5. For having bad taste in music
  6. For telling me the truth about you
  7. For trusting me
  8. For letting me trust you
  9. For calling me drunk
  10. For answering the phone
  11. For hugging me
  12. For trying to say goodbye and catch me before I left to the airport
  13. For supporting my dreams
  14. For caring about me
  15. For calling me beautiful
  16. For asking me not to wear make-up
  17. For asking me for advice
  18. For talking with me about everything and anything in skype for hours
  19. For telling me I looked pretty
  20. For calling me hot
  21. For not taking your hands off me
  22. For telling me I shouldn’t trust them
  23. For fooling around everywhere
  24. For being shameless
  25. For acting weird
  26. For forgiving me
  27. For understand me when none else did
  28. For making me cry
  29. For making me realize that we just weren’t meant to be
  30. For holding my hair while I was puking
  31. For standing up with my bullshit
  32. For never judging me
  33. For laughing at my bad jokes
  34. For introducing me to Game of Thrones
  35. For telling me that you forgot the picture that I gave you (even tho I’m pretty sure you got rid of it)
  36. For never trowing that red ribbon
  37. For endless conversations
  38. For the good times
  39. For the bad times
  40. For the partying
  41. For the drums
  42. For the honesty
  43. For rough truth
  44. For realizing before me that you could never loved me the way I wanted
  45. For calling me your best friend
  46. For promising you’ll never stop talking to me
  47. For stop talking to me
  48. For being jealous
  49. For asking me what I wanted
  50. For not giving me what I wanted
  51. For being hot
  52. For being skinny
  53. For liking my body
  54. For visiting me at my city
  55. For being surpised when I visited you
  56. For giving me chills with just a look
  57. For breaking my heart
  58. For breaking my heart more than once
  59. For telling me about the girl you love
  60. For telling me you got your heart broken
  61. For teaching me stuff
  62. For playing with me
  63. For kissing me in funny ways
  64. For joking with me
  65. For taking that call at the hardest time on my life
  66. For telling me everything was gonna be okay
  67. For never trying to do my harm
  68. For trying to protect me
  69. For not being ashemed of me
  70. For telling your friend about me
  71. For letting your friend tell me the truth about you
  72. For letting me kiss you when we were drunk
  73. For trying to understand my past
  74. For trying (“trying”) to pshyco-analize me
  75. For letting me be inside your head
  76. For letting me listen to your thoughts
  77. For “accepting” my crazyness
  78. For being taller than me
  79. For sharing your secrets
  80. For keeping my secrets
  81. For wishing me luck when I needed it
  82. For asking me for help
  83. For borrowing me that book
  84. For trying to do homework
  85. For asking me to marry you in my kitchen
  86. For reading me your thoughts
  87. For sharing your experience with me
  88. For making me smile
  89. For smiling at me
  90. For talking to me again
  91. For not replying my messages
  92. For thinking that I hated you
  93. For telling me you didn’t hate me
  94. For not hating me
  95. For being “friends” with me on facebook -again-
  96. For the birthday wishes
  97. For that last kiss
  98. For being a good friend
  99. For all the memories that will stay with me forever
  100. For loving me on your own way.

I don’t think I’ll ever see you again (and I don’t think I want to), I wish you the best and you’ll always be part of who I was, I will always have a feeling for you, call it whatever you want. But mostly I wish you could find whatever you’re looking for, be loved and happiness.


– M

I want to write a book.

Since I have memory, I’ve always wanted to write a book, I used to make mini-stories about what happened to me on the day in small pieces of paper wrapped as a brochure, of course it was mostly drawings (bad drawings) but I liked them, then right off I started writing and reading I kept journals, I have journals since I can recall. Most of them were written with really bad grammar and ugly writing, but they were mine. My journals, my stories, my creations… Then I started blogging. But I still have journals, and one of my dreams, that now I’m turning into a goal, is to have a book about my travels, but I have to have one special journey. I’ve not traveled as much as many others but, I will. And trust me, I will write about it. Hope it make it big, and you all can read it and have a copy of it.

One of my best friends sent me something from South Korea, we both grew up in Mexico (I’m Mexican, she’s not) but didn’t met until I moved to the city where she also lived, we became good friends in high school and when it was over, she had to move back to her country, we’ve been exchanging letters, sarcastic postcards, some art I made and she sends me stuff like face masks (Fact: Korean facial products work really good by the way) and some notebooks, because she knows how much I love to write.

But this, this last one, oh man! Did it changed something in me, she motivated me… And I can’t wait until I’m done with it!


I hope we meet again and this time, I want her to be the first to read my book-to-be.